My personal high, Can I OverDose on you?

Honestly speaking, I want this. I want to meet a guy that wants me and ONLY me. I’m talking about when this man first see’s you he gets this feeling no matter how hard or “Gangsta” he might be, but he gets this feeling like…. “Damn.. That’s the one.”. & when he realizes this he seeks no one else but YOU and he does everything in his power to get you. & Every girl he ever tried to talk to before is now irrelevant in his mind now.. That he met you. Now.. I play this game when I see a guy is interested in me, Let me teach y’all the rules. If I’m walking outside somewhere & I see a guy trying to talk to me, I’ll keep walking. Its 2 reasons why I’ll keep walking, If he’s being disrespectful I’ll DEFF keep walking but If he’s being respectful I’m still going to keep walking, Know why? Well, That’s where the game begins.. If I see you are still trying to talk to me as I’m walking past but stop as I don’t respond to you then I take it as this.. You only liked what you saw and you don’t want to get to know me, In your mind your thinking, “Fck it! I’ll wait for the next pretty face.” BUT If you try to talk to me and see that I’m walking past not paying you no mind BUT you start walking with me, you try to use everything in your power to talk to me it shows me your interested in ME, That’s already points for you . I like to play a chase, If your willing to play the game with me then I’m already sold. I LOVE to see someone’s passion for me, That shows me that your REALLY into me, and I like that. If I see a guy staring me in the face, I’ll do the same.. We can play the staring game, but if you get intimidated & look away I’ll laugh. A REAL MAN is what I love, That’s basically what I’m trying to say. I’m honestly tired of these lil ass boys that try to talk to me, & I’m not talking about lil in age, I’m talking about lil in mind. My ex was 21, but his mind was 11. Where’s the men? Where’s the REAL men that have they eyes set on one female and are happy with that, The men that don’t need no-one else but you. I always say how its annoying when I go out and have a lot of guys trying to talk to me, I bet y’all wonder why. Its because its these guys that I could care less about, Having a lot of guys trying to talk to you MEANS NOTHING if there not what your looking for. It gets tiring, I have yet to bring a guy to meet my mom.. That’s sad, BUT I’m happy about that cause I don’t want just ANYONE meeting my mom. The man that meets my mom will be someone special I’ll tell you that much. It kinda saddens me alil… But I’ll patiently wait for him. I want to be number one, I got to be number one.. If your gonna be my number one then I gotta be yours too, then together.. Cant no one break us two. If your interested, I need you to be willing to play my game, chase me.. Show me that your interested.. Little do you know how much it makes me smile cause once you have me.. It’ll be a different story. Once you have me that’s when the tables turn, That’s when you could fall back… I love a guy to give me my space, but still be there.. I love a guy whose so comfortable with himself that he doesn’t need to know what I’m doing 24/7 because secretly I’m thinking.. WHY HASN’T HE HIT ME UP!? WHERE IS HE!!?? IS HE EVEN THINKING ABOUT ME?! & then at the end of the day you always get a call from him, he’ll be so nonchalant and just say.. “What up, I missed you.” So kinda shallow, so IDC- ish but YOU KNOW that he really missed you, Lol -smiles- If that aint my turn on IDK wtf is… It may seem like I’m complicated but I’m really not.. I just miss the REAL men. Miss… ?? I don’t even think I got a taste of having a REAL man.. =( WHERE ARE Y’ALL!? Being pretty don’t mean shyt if you attract the WRONG men. -sigh- All I ask for is a guy that don’t mind chasing me to have me and that don’t care what no one says but he just got to have me, and when he gets me I want him to be so secure with himself that he don’t have to be all up on me to know that I’m gonna be his, and his only. I know myself.. Once I know I have that.. I will NEVER question myself.. I will know that I love this man and no-one can change that. That’s probley why I have Lloyd ft Juelz Santana’s song Pusha on BLAST REPEAT as I write this.. Because y’all may only see the song as a hot song comparing someone of interest to the power of a high BUT ME.. Naw.. I see this song as something I wish I had. I want a guy to feel like I’m his Pusha and vise versa.. This song talks to me on so many levels. Lloyd talks to me on so many levels because his songs are the truth. I want a man to feel like I’m his Pusha and if he ever though I’d leave him he’d feel like he was having a Heart attack and if he ever did me wrong he’d be on his knees saying a Players Prayer. I know it seems like a fairy tale of what I ask for but I know its not.. I’ll just patiently wait..

“You're my pusha(Pusha), girl you got the world(The world) that I wanna try(Try), don't wanna break the rules but I get high off your supply(Pusha) don't make me wait(Me Wait), I'll do what it takes(Takes), your love is the fix I wanna taste.”