My personal high, Can I OverDose on you?

Honestly speaking, I want this. I want to meet a guy that wants me and ONLY me. I’m talking about when this man first see’s you he gets this feeling no matter how hard or “Gangsta” he might be, but he gets this feeling like…. “Damn.. That’s the one.”. & when he realizes this he seeks no one else but YOU and he does everything in his power to get you. & Every girl he ever tried to talk to before is now irrelevant in his mind now.. That he met you. Now.. I play this game when I see a guy is interested in me, Let me teach y’all the rules. If I’m walking outside somewhere & I see a guy trying to talk to me, I’ll keep walking. Its 2 reasons why I’ll keep walking, If he’s being disrespectful I’ll DEFF keep walking but If he’s being respectful I’m still going to keep walking, Know why? Well, That’s where the game begins.. If I see you are still trying to talk to me as I’m walking past but stop as I don’t respond to you then I take it as this.. You only liked what you saw and you don’t want to get to know me, In your mind your thinking, “Fck it! I’ll wait for the next pretty face.” BUT If you try to talk to me and see that I’m walking past not paying you no mind BUT you start walking with me, you try to use everything in your power to talk to me it shows me your interested in ME, That’s already points for you . I like to play a chase, If your willing to play the game with me then I’m already sold. I LOVE to see someone’s passion for me, That shows me that your REALLY into me, and I like that. If I see a guy staring me in the face, I’ll do the same.. We can play the staring game, but if you get intimidated & look away I’ll laugh. A REAL MAN is what I love, That’s basically what I’m trying to say. I’m honestly tired of these lil ass boys that try to talk to me, & I’m not talking about lil in age, I’m talking about lil in mind. My ex was 21, but his mind was 11. Where’s the men? Where’s the REAL men that have they eyes set on one female and are happy with that, The men that don’t need no-one else but you. I always say how its annoying when I go out and have a lot of guys trying to talk to me, I bet y’all wonder why. Its because its these guys that I could care less about, Having a lot of guys trying to talk to you MEANS NOTHING if there not what your looking for. It gets tiring, I have yet to bring a guy to meet my mom.. That’s sad, BUT I’m happy about that cause I don’t want just ANYONE meeting my mom. The man that meets my mom will be someone special I’ll tell you that much. It kinda saddens me alil… But I’ll patiently wait for him. I want to be number one, I got to be number one.. If your gonna be my number one then I gotta be yours too, then together.. Cant no one break us two. If your interested, I need you to be willing to play my game, chase me.. Show me that your interested.. Little do you know how much it makes me smile cause once you have me.. It’ll be a different story. Once you have me that’s when the tables turn, That’s when you could fall back… I love a guy to give me my space, but still be there.. I love a guy whose so comfortable with himself that he doesn’t need to know what I’m doing 24/7 because secretly I’m thinking.. WHY HASN’T HE HIT ME UP!? WHERE IS HE!!?? IS HE EVEN THINKING ABOUT ME?! & then at the end of the day you always get a call from him, he’ll be so nonchalant and just say.. “What up, I missed you.” So kinda shallow, so IDC- ish but YOU KNOW that he really missed you, Lol -smiles- If that aint my turn on IDK wtf is… It may seem like I’m complicated but I’m really not.. I just miss the REAL men. Miss… ?? I don’t even think I got a taste of having a REAL man.. =( WHERE ARE Y’ALL!? Being pretty don’t mean shyt if you attract the WRONG men. -sigh- All I ask for is a guy that don’t mind chasing me to have me and that don’t care what no one says but he just got to have me, and when he gets me I want him to be so secure with himself that he don’t have to be all up on me to know that I’m gonna be his, and his only. I know myself.. Once I know I have that.. I will NEVER question myself.. I will know that I love this man and no-one can change that. That’s probley why I have Lloyd ft Juelz Santana’s song Pusha on BLAST REPEAT as I write this.. Because y’all may only see the song as a hot song comparing someone of interest to the power of a high BUT ME.. Naw.. I see this song as something I wish I had. I want a guy to feel like I’m his Pusha and vise versa.. This song talks to me on so many levels. Lloyd talks to me on so many levels because his songs are the truth. I want a man to feel like I’m his Pusha and if he ever though I’d leave him he’d feel like he was having a Heart attack and if he ever did me wrong he’d be on his knees saying a Players Prayer. I know it seems like a fairy tale of what I ask for but I know its not.. I’ll just patiently wait..

“You're my pusha(Pusha), girl you got the world(The world) that I wanna try(Try), don't wanna break the rules but I get high off your supply(Pusha) don't make me wait(Me Wait), I'll do what it takes(Takes), your love is the fix I wanna taste.”

Everyone's Thoughts

"As I think and wonder about life, I still continue to look foward to that dream, while they watch from the sidelines... with a hidden agenda....."

Its not just me who ever thought about life & whats in stored for them. I guarantee you everyone living with capability of having thoughts has thought..... Whats next in life for me? No matter where you are in life, where you were in life... that has crossed your mind, cause it always crosses my mind. I wonder.. what do I have to do to get where I want to be? If only there was a map of life, or a quick glimpse of my future so I could see what I need to change, what I need to look out for and which way, what move to make. Some people just want to live an ordinary life, but me? Naw... that ain't for me, I feel I need the spotlight, the fans, I need it ALL! But most of all... I need the music, I want to hear my song on the radio, leaked on the net, and mouthed by the people, gives me a rush. I just don't know which way to go sometimes.. how must I start this journey of mine, who must I trust? Is this even the right path I am suppose to be focusing on, Is singing even in my destiny? Naw... Fck that, no question about it, it IS! Its something Ive known since I was able to talk... "Mommy, I'm going to be a singer." Exact words. Its like... if I don't make it.. I'll die. I know, I know.. a bit extreme.. but I can t help the way I feel, no opinion, FACT. I been to a spiritual reader before & I'm pleased with the results... I will not tell, have never told anyone & will NEVER tell anyone... the only one that knows is my mother because she was with me. Veryy pleased.. but which way do I go? How do I start? I guess time will indeed tell... But I feel like I don't have the time, I will not be 18 forever, matter of fact not even for another 4 months, by then I'll be 19 in 4 months, you see that. Time flies... so do I really have the time? You ever feel like your chasing a dream on a treadmill and your wondering when will you catch up to REALITY. I do.. But my dream is catching up to REALITY, I feel it. I know it. I need to speak to my spiritual person again.. she knows well enough that it scares me... Lol.. She even said "Miss girl, when your on t.v, don't forget about me, accepting that award.. Thank me please." Shes wonderful. I do know one thing, when I finally reach the reality to my dream, I will NEVER EVER forget the stuggle I endured to get to my progress. In all honesty I feel like MANY artist today have already forgotten the road to which they had to travel to get to success, I just feel like the fame is getting to their head & trush.. I would indeed name names but that would open a can of worms because the people in which I would name are some of y'all favorites :/ I dont respect people like that because you have to cherish the success and remember where you came from, me myself.. I'll stay humble and lovable forever beyond my success. I feel awful for the people who never find what there were made for, who die before finding their true purpose on earth, who gives up on their dreams because they have been on the treadmill for too long and people are telling them to "Get off already! Your running for too long, losing too much weight, you look sick, you wont make it..." Just sad. People please please, don't EVER let anyone tell you to get off that treadmill to the reality to your dream... no matter how tired and exhausted you are keep running! The negative ignorant people WILL tell you the wrong things, and they will try to be as nice as possible about crushing your dreams but still try to break you down, just like a Devil. Just believe in the Lord and all will be well, it might not come as fast as you want it to come but trust me... Ive experience alot of heartache but with the Lord always on thought, always in heart nothing can affect me. I laugh & smile and joke about negative things that people would cry about.. and people don't understand why, but in all honesty... I have no more tears, crying is too much energy.. I used alot of energy on crying.. just smile, laugh and joke it off. I cant and refuse to cry for most things that would sadden others... I like for people to see only the good, because when they see the bad they play on it to break me down, NO! I REFUSE, got the wrong person, when I'm sad... you'll never know unless I say so. I have trust issues but I seem to trust alot.. twisted. yea I know, but I cant trust people, I always look for the worst because I prepare myself. Just being honest. Life is something else.. I personally thing its a game.. in which later on we will be judged upon by the great Lord on how well we played this game of life, how will you answer? But until then, I need a map, a sign from God, SOMETHING... on which way to go. I kind-of think I know already though.. Do you?
-Miss Simone

The Introduction

& So this is my first post. I got some great news today involving the love of my life; Music. I will not speak on it because I've been told not to speak on good things about to happen to you in your life because bad people will indeed wish bad things. So on that note just know its something good and sooner or later you all will find out. I am here people! Here's alil bit info on me. My name is Simone Moore. No that's not my first name but yet my middle name and only a few know my first name, I'd like to keep it like that. I am indeed a proud LIBRA, I have 2 sisters and 1 baby brother. My sisters are both older than me and one is currently in the Navy, she's 19 years old and she is indeed my heart, we may argue but I love her to death. I was raised by just my mother which I am very proud of because she is a hard worker and a strong woman who I love dearly, I have no clue who my father is so that's a lost cause, & I do have a step-father but he's basically just there.. never really taught my sister and I much although I do have love for him because he's been around since day one so I'm use to him. I am 18 years of wisdom and I've had a hard shaky life that many know nothing about & I'd like to keep it that way, In the words of a wise man.. No Struggle No Progress, so sooner or later my progress will be here in a flash. When I was born, I lived a few years in Queensbridge Projects N.y, Yes.. same place Nas is from, my family is also from Queensbridge and grew up with Nas, they were all friends. I have moved numerous times in my life.. cant even count on 2 hands, from Queens to Staten etc.. & If y'all don't know, I am a singer since forever and I love music.. I feel its a cleanser.. Music is Heaven to me. I look up to Beyonce' because she is the hardest working female in this industry with great performance skills.. she absolutely does it ALL, but honestly.. she needs acting skills. I also love love love Lloyd's music, it upsets me that alot of people sleep on such a great artist but his time will come, I'm not worried so with that being said follow Lloyd on Twitter at Twitter.com/Lloyd_YG and also follow a great organization developed by 9 wonderful ladies including myself on Twitter.com/Lloyd_Ladies . I also love Trey Songz soulful voice, hes a great person and a great artist. Hmm.. What else am i missing.. Well i reside in Washington D.C, & I HOPE & WISH to come back to my home, NYC. I know you all are expecting for me to tell you about my personality and self.. Welp, Sorry.. No can do. I simply cant do that because I change and evolve every single day, so what I might tell you today, could change tomorrow. If you want to get to know me then do so.. in my opinion, actions speak louder than words. I am very wise beyond my 18 years so I could most deff tell you alil bit of something. Oh & I have an awesome tattoo matching with my bestfriend, Precious. Its a music note with wings(Music is Heaven) with words above it that say "P.S I love You." The P would stand for Precious and the S would stand for Simone. Cute Huh? Lol I barely get along with Females because there too catty and most are fake and have an second agenda to them, No Bueno. That's why I only consider a few females that are friends for life; Precious, Rasheema, Michelle, and the rest will be family. I also have to say, that I get in trouble with my opinions alot, but the truth is.. I truly don't care. I am very strong minded and if I have something to say best believe it will be said, I speak my mind so if you don't like it.. then welp.. ok. I am a veryy nice person and I don't like to see people bullied, I don't like to turn my back on people and I am just a very well raised female who has a heart but when I feel people are taking my kindness for weakness the mean person in me will arise. I don't like to feel played, or took for granted, it bothers me so please don't because you WILL see a diff side of me that you wont like. I also must say I am a bit full of myself, just speaking the truth. I wont ever use my confidence to rub in someones face because that's just mean and heartless but I am very confident in myself and I don't really like to brag about it because I know that I am a good looking female so why brag when you have sight? I feel people who brag and talk about how good they look, ex "I'm the baddest.. blah blah blah." has some inner insecurities. So umm.. Yea.. I think that's it. What I will be blogging about is kind-of unknown because I'm a very random type of person so trust you wont be disappointed, I'll always have something to say, a thought to express, a song to write, a day to tell, and etc. & So I am about to sign off because I feel myself rambling off with my thoughts lol so if you wanna keep in touch you could also follow me on Twitter at Twitter.com/MissSimone32 . You could also check out my Myspace which I check from time to time; Myspace.com/Babygiirlsd0t32 and as for my aim.. Ahh you could ask and maybe I'll give if I feel your worthy enough. Talk to you all later, Happy Sunday! MUCHO LOVE!
-Miss Simone